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Moments of Insanity

by Rick Paul

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1.
Stubborn Heart 03:59
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STUBBORN HEART words and music by Rick Paul It's not like I didn't know The minute I saw you Dancing to the music in your head I'd be falling hard I should have turned away But I just watched you sway instead And by the time that you sat down by my side I was picturing you dressed all in white My mind knows just how this will end one day No faulty logic's leading me astray It's just this stubborn heart that leads me wrong And starts me heading toward some sad song It gives me moments of insanity Though my mind knows you're not the one for me Each time I fall in love I miss the mark Thanks to my stubborn heart There's this chemistry But it's not enough When I'm not what you're looking for Hearts don't understand So they charge ahead Until they hit that slamming door I'll be feeling like you might be the one Just before it all comes undone My mind knows just how this will end one day No faulty logic's leading me astray It's just this stubborn heart that leads me wrong And starts me heading toward some sad song It gives me moments of insanity Though my mind knows you're not the one for me Each time I fall in love I miss the mark Thanks to my stubborn heart I'll be feeling like you're surely the one And that's when it'll all come undone My mind knows just how this will end one day No faulty logic's leading me astray It's just this stubborn heart that leads me wrong And starts me heading toward some sad song It gives me moments of insanity Though my mind knows you're not the one for me Each time I fall in love I miss the mark Thanks to my stubborn heart Each time I fall in love I miss the mark Thanks to my stubborn heart © 2019, 2020 Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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Dream a Mighty Dream 02:51
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DREAM A MIGHTY DREAM words and music by Rick Paul There's wonder that waits to be found And blessings too many to count So let's shed our protective shells Walk into the world and amaze ourselves Ooh, look up to the stars Tell me what you see The universe is ours If we just believe Spread your arms out wide Embrace your destiny And dream a mighty dream We've come to a brand new day Together we'll step out in faith And we'll speak in a common voice Join hands with our neighbors, make a beautiful noise Ooh, look up to the stars Tell me what you see The universe is ours If we just believe Spread your arms out wide Embrace your destiny And dream a mighty dream Our moment's here, now is the time To move forward or be left behind Ooh, look up to the stars Tell me what you see The universe is ours If we just believe Spread your arms out wide Embrace your destiny And dream a mighty... Ooh, look up to the stars Tell me what you see The universe is ours If we just believe Spread your arms out wide Embrace your destiny And dream a mighty dream Yeah, dream a mighty dream Dream a mighty dream Dream a mighty dream © 2019, 2020 Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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This Circle 03:48
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THIS CIRCLE words and music by Rick Paul Why do we keep makin' the same mistakes Say those icy words 'cause we've gotta save face Then we dig in for the storm we know's comin' We've been here before like a hundred times Déjà vu's no stranger to our storyline But we dig in, 'til we're feelin' like runnin' Don't know if I'll ever understand How a man can hurt a woman and a woman wound a man The way we do You and me, we go 'round and 'round Again and again, between makeups and breakdowns First we're flyin' high, then we're down so low I can't wait to hold you, or I wish that you would go But you don't wanna hurt me, I don't wanna hurt you We just keep goin' 'round this circle Girl, I realize you've got me hypnotized You're foolin' with my feelin's, messin' with my mind And I love it, just as much as I hate it You know it drives me crazy goin' 'round like this From misery to ecstasy with just one kiss But I love it, even if I can't take it Heaven, help us know what we should do Oh, we drive each other crazy, but we have so much to lose Yes, we do You and me, we go 'round and 'round Again and again, between makeups and breakdowns First we're flyin' high, then we're down so low I can't wait to hold you, or I wish that you would go But you don't wanna hurt me, I don't wanna hurt you We just keep goin' 'round this circle Oh, we keep goin' round this circle Oh, we keep goin' round this circle © 2020 Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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After Us (Country Mix) 02:48
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AFTER US words and music by Michael J. Parker and Rick Paul You left me feeling hopeless Didn’t even see you cry I drove around for hours ’Til my Mustang found your drive You said don’t call or come by You said this time we’re through But “goodbye” wasn't good for me So I kept after you After us, after love After all I lost sight of After all, after you Nothing comes close No other love could ever be enough After us Saw you wipe away a teardrop As you finally let me in I’d already said I’m sorry Still I said it again There was pain and love in your eyes And it knocked me to the floor But I saw strength inside you Like I’d never seen before After us, after love After all I lost sight of After all, after you Nothing comes close No other love could ever be enough After us Could it be there’s hope We might take another chance Could it be neither one of us Can imagine life... After us, after love After all I lost sight of After all, after you Nothing comes close No other love could ever be enough After us © 2005, 2009 Michael J. Parker (BMI)/Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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One Good Reason (Country Mix) 03:24
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ONE GOOD REASON words and music by Rick Paul Your head keeps turning Every time I look in your eyes Like I can't help but do Could it be you're feeling That the word I know I've got to say Will break my heart in two But I can't go on without some sign Of what I mean to you If I just had one good reason to stay here A hundred reasons to go couldn't keep me away I'd gladly give you a thousand lifetimes If you'd give me one good reason One good reason to stay Perhaps I'm foolish Leaving when I want to hold you Every day and night Maybe you're just nervous 'Cause I know that you've been hurt before Baby, I'd treat you right But I need some spark coming from you Just a glimmer of light If I just had one good reason to stay here A hundred reasons to go couldn't keep me away I'd gladly give you a thousand lifetimes If you'd give me one good reason One good reason to stay Wish I could read your mind Or hear what your heart is saying Perhaps I'd find a reason for staying If I just had one good reason to stay here A hundred reasons to go couldn't keep me away I'd gladly give you a thousand lifetimes If you'd give me one good reason One good reason to stay © 2000, 2002 Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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Happy Birthday to Me 02:42
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME words and music by Kathy Schaeffer and Rick Paul By the light of the candles you said that we’d spend Every birthday by each others’ side You never would leave, and how I believed But it’s my birthday, and, baby, you lied Happy birthday to me are the words that I sing As I sit here and hold back a tear Make a toast to myself with our favorite drink And remember your promise last year Happy birthday to me Wish you were here There isn’t a present, there isn’t a cake But somehow I know I’ll be fine I’ll get over this emptiness that I feel If I can get through this birthday of mine Happy birthday to me are the words that I sing As I sit here and hold back a tear Make a toast to myself with our favorite drink And remember your promise last year Happy birthday to me Wish you were here Do you know what today is, do you even care Do the words “happy birthday” spark a memory somewhere Happy birthday to me are the words that I sing As I sit here and hold back a tear Make a toast to myself with our favorite drink And remember your promise last year Happy birthday to me Wish you were here © 1998, 2020 Kathy A. Schaeffer (BMI), Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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Bubble Gum (2020 Remix) 02:36
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BUBBLE GUM words and music by Rick Paul Bubble gum Bubble gum You are as sweet as bubble gum Bubble gum Bubble gum You are a treat, like bubble gum I could give up candy, and I wouldn't even miss it The only sugar for me is your kisses Bubble gum Bubble gum I'll stick to you, like bubble gum Mother said you're not the kind of girl who stays too long But you're still here, and we're still going strong Bubble gum Bubble gum You stick to me, like bubble gum Maybe I Have lost all my reason I'm mad for you There's nothing near as pleasing As... Bubble gum Bubble gum I do need you, my bubble gum Bubble gum Bubble gum I'll stick to you You'll stick to me You are as sweet As bubble gum © 2003, 2007 Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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Once Through the Sixties (2020 Remix) 03:34
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ONCE THROUGH THE SIXTIES words and music by Ray Ducharme and Rick Paul I see people smile as they reminisce With "Lost in the Fifties Tonight" And old Mickey Gilley, yeah, he sings the praises Of a walk on the boardwalk just right And "Doo Wah Ditty" and old Bo Diddley Still bring back some fond memories I’ll walk through the fifties, but once through the sixties Was more than enough for me Once through the sixties was more than enough for me Too many men dying, for no good reason I’ve seen Kids at Kent State, shot down for what they believed Yes, once through the sixties was more than enough for me I still see Jackie splattered with blood In the back of that black limousine And the whole world watched as life in Camelot Slipped away on the wings of her scream Free love was the rage, but the price that we paid Is still being collected today That music still hits me, but once through the sixties Was more than enough for me Once through the sixties was more than enough for me Chicago and Frisco, generations at war in the streets Martin and Bobby, shot down for what they believed Yes, once through the sixties was more than enough for me Yes, once through the sixties was more than enough for me © 1997, 2017 Raymond F. Ducharme (BMI)/Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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Come On Home (2020 Remix) 03:30
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COME ON HOME words and music by Rick Paul It's been hard here lately Been that way a while All I see is gray skies Could really use a friendly smile You always make my sun shine Warm me when I'm feeling cold Don't know how you do it But you soothe my restless soul Come on home Yeah, come on home Ooh, won't you come on home Baby, please I'm beggin' on my knees Won't you come on home, yeah I can't believe I let you go Even pushed you away Now I know how much you mean to me Please come home to stay Come on home Yeah, come on home Ooh, won't you come on home Baby, please I'm beggin' on my knees Won't you come on home, yeah We've made memories together I can't wait to make some more Don't think this clock can move any slower Than when I'm waiting for you to walk through that front door Come on home Yeah, come on home Ooh, won't you come on home Baby, please I'm beggin' on my knees Won't you come on home, yeah Baby, please I'm beggin' on my knees Won't you come on home © 2019 Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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Love is Enough 03:40
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LOVE IS ENOUGH words and music by Ray Ducharme and Rick Paul With drapes drawn so tight The room black as night White wine to make it right, we came together She’d been drinking way too much Now she longed for someone’s touch Just once more she had to hear someone whisper "I love you" But the words never came "I need you" Were words I could not say When I said, "I want you" She knew it was not love But on that day It was enough She had never done That with anyone But it had been so long since he’d been near her Though she tried to be a good wife The bottle had swallowed his life It was time for her to hear someone whisper "I love you" But the words never came "I need you" Were words I could not say When I said, "I want you" She knew it was not love But on that day It was enough That motel’s long gone But we’re still going strong Didn’t take me long to learn to love her Now she’s loving her life ‘Cause her man is treating her right How I love to watch her eyes light when I whisper "I love you" And know she feels the same "I need you" I mean just what I say When I say, "I want you" She knows it is true love And on this day Love is enough Love is enough for the two of us Love is enough Always enough For the two of us Love is enough © 1998, 2018 Raymond F. Ducharme (BMI), Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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Steel 03:37
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STEEL words and music by Rick Paul It's hard being strong When all you've got just leaves you hanging on Somehow you stand the strain But how much longer can you bear this pain Oh, you brace yourself For another storm that's blowing through Yeah, you brace yourself 'Cause that black cloud keeps on chasing you Just remember you are steel Just remember you are steel Just remember you are steel You can bend, but don't break You can bend It's hard letting go So much to lose, so much you've held so close And so you face the wind Close your eyes, and hold tight once again And you brace yourself For another storm that's blowing through Yeah, you brace yourself 'Cause that's all you've ever known to do Just remember you are steel Just remember you are steel Just remember you are steel You can bend, but don't break You can bend You get knocked down, you get up But when you reach your limit Just remember you are steel Just remember you are steel Just remember you are steel You can bend, but don't break You can bend But don't break You won't break No, don't break Don't break © 2019 Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved
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Love Holds On (A.C. Remix) 03:03
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LOVE HOLDS ON words and music by Rebecca Hanneman and Rick Paul Love's tender when it's young and when we're lucky Lingers like a sweet kiss of desire Blazing as our passions consume us Rising from the ashes, love is fire Fear like a phantom tries to chase us And catch us when we're frail and all alone We start to lose our grasp on what's important Forget the thing that we have always known Love holds on Fear lets go Love is steady, love is strong Love holds on We sleep under the blanket of commitment We dream above the clouds of sweet romance Moving past the sting of old rejections We give our jaded hearts another chance Love holds on Fear lets go Love is steady, love is strong Love holds on Love holds on Fear lets go Love is steady, love is strong Love holds on Love holds on © 1997, 2009 Rebecca Hanneman/Closet Cowboy Music (ASCAP) All Rights Reserved

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2020's been a crazy year, to say the least. Deciding to make this album was a bit of an impulse decision, and the title reflects a combination of factors, including the year itself, the short period between deciding to make the album and finishing it (including both compiling previous singles, remixing some tracks, and recording new tracks), the mix of genres (a bit of pop/AC, some country, some 60s flavors), and that each song has a connection of one kind or another, however tenuous, to some form of craziness. The album title comes from a line in the chorus of the song's opening track, "Stubborn Heart".

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released October 30, 2020

Performed, produced, engineered, mixed, and mastered by Rick Paul.

Cover artwork and photography by Rick Paul, based on Der Schrei der Natur by Edvard Munch.

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Rick Paul Laguna Hills, California

Rick Paul's songs combine memorable pop/rock and country melodies with mature, often thought provoking, lyrics on life and love. His singing has drawn comparisons to Dan Hill, Randy Newman, and Neil Young, while his piano playing is most frequently compared to Rick’s biggest musical influence, Elton John. Rick performs frequently in Orange County, California. ... more

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